Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Grab your Cigarettes
'Cause this one's a quickie!
I don't condone smoking at all though. I'd rather you chew gum, go for a walk, or try breathing instead!
I don't condone smoking at all though. I'd rather you chew gum, go for a walk, or try breathing instead!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
LATE!
Week two of Mornings with Jasper. It's not my fault my school has crappy internet so I couldn't upload it earlier. It is my fault that I couldn't find another solution. Oh well. IN CHICAGO!!!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Video #1!!!
First off, I FINALLY posted the pictures from our snow adventure and what's left of Wanda.
Next, you've probably been wondering why I havent posted anything in a week. Well, below is my attempt at a video blog. These are my first 2 videos ever! It took so much work, and I know it's FAR FROM PERFECT, because I ramble and its blurry, and etc. etc., but I'm so happy with myself for taping myself EVERY MORNING! It's hard getting used to the camera!
And so, without further ado, I introduce week 1 of Mornings with Jasper:
I kind of see this as the beginning to a modern day Anne Frank. Yea, I'm so modest :)
Next, you've probably been wondering why I havent posted anything in a week. Well, below is my attempt at a video blog. These are my first 2 videos ever! It took so much work, and I know it's FAR FROM PERFECT, because I ramble and its blurry, and etc. etc., but I'm so happy with myself for taping myself EVERY MORNING! It's hard getting used to the camera!
And so, without further ado, I introduce week 1 of Mornings with Jasper:
I kind of see this as the beginning to a modern day Anne Frank. Yea, I'm so modest :)
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Wabbits
So, its super late, and I fully intended to post a new blog! So! Here we go:
On Thursday, I entered into a snow sculpture contest with some of my friends! It was super funny because we had no idea what we were doing (like with the sand sculpture contest this last summer!) and we changed our idea at LEAST a dozen times! We got second place! (out of three, but still! The first place people didn't deserve it. All they did was half a coke can. Oh well, the judges are human too! haha) Below are pictures!
On Friday, I went with Regina and Jayne to go see Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland! We ended up seeing it in 3-D! It took me a while to get used to the effects, but once I did it was amazing! The colors and scenery popped all throughout the movie! The plot, however, seemed to furl at the ending. It left me unsatisfied, and that's why immediately on Saturday I downloaded the original Alice's adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll. I was definitely surprised by how easy it was to read, and also how short it was. It was only 118 pages! Also, it was completely free! There was a $5 version, but being the broke college student that I am, I chose to go with the free version, provided by Google. It was riddled with mistakes! I couldn't believe the amount of typos in it. I was however, very happy with the pictures that came with it. They were the originals! I read the whole thing today, and really was moved by it. I will talk more about it later!
Today, on Saturday (technically its sunday now. boo!) The girls water polo team had a tournament here at school, and so I definitely attended! It looked like so much fun! I really miss water polo! The cool thing is, we needed people to run the meet, so I got to score the games (not all of them) ! I actually learned more about the game that way than actually playing it! I can't wait to play again senior year!
That was my weekend!
(EDIT: Wanda, unfortunately, has met her end. It was super warm this weekend [43 degrees!!!], and now she is a burnt matchstick remnant of a snowwoman. So no pictures on her :/ )
On Thursday, I entered into a snow sculpture contest with some of my friends! It was super funny because we had no idea what we were doing (like with the sand sculpture contest this last summer!) and we changed our idea at LEAST a dozen times! We got second place! (out of three, but still! The first place people didn't deserve it. All they did was half a coke can. Oh well, the judges are human too! haha) Below are pictures!
On Friday, I went with Regina and Jayne to go see Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland! We ended up seeing it in 3-D! It took me a while to get used to the effects, but once I did it was amazing! The colors and scenery popped all throughout the movie! The plot, however, seemed to furl at the ending. It left me unsatisfied, and that's why immediately on Saturday I downloaded the original Alice's adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll. I was definitely surprised by how easy it was to read, and also how short it was. It was only 118 pages! Also, it was completely free! There was a $5 version, but being the broke college student that I am, I chose to go with the free version, provided by Google. It was riddled with mistakes! I couldn't believe the amount of typos in it. I was however, very happy with the pictures that came with it. They were the originals! I read the whole thing today, and really was moved by it. I will talk more about it later!
Today, on Saturday (technically its sunday now. boo!) The girls water polo team had a tournament here at school, and so I definitely attended! It looked like so much fun! I really miss water polo! The cool thing is, we needed people to run the meet, so I got to score the games (not all of them) ! I actually learned more about the game that way than actually playing it! I can't wait to play again senior year!
That was my weekend!
(EDIT: Wanda, unfortunately, has met her end. It was super warm this weekend [43 degrees!!!], and now she is a burnt matchstick remnant of a snowwoman. So no pictures on her :/ )
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Snow
This week has been filled with snow! Let me explain.
One day, Hannah convinced me to go hiking with her in the bluffs. At first I didn't want to, but the sun was out and it energized me so much! But then, I guess she was really tired and ditched me halfway on the walk. She was being really annoying anyways. good riddance. I walked. And walked. And walked and walked and walked and walked! I walked so much, I had to lay down and rest about 3 or 4 times. When I got back to my room, I realized the icy and snow that was up mid-calf had rubbed the color clear off of my boots! Oops.
On Saturday, I went snow-shoeing for the first time ever! It was so much fun! and I got to hang out with a lot of cool people, which was great for a change. Hannah had planned to come, but the last moment she texted me saying she wasn't going to come. I think she is mad at me. But oh well. I had so much fun.
Today, I had a snowball fight with Regina and Jayne! It wasn't that fun, because I was the only in shape male there. But it was nice that they tried! I built a pretty awesome fort too. On top of that, after we got bored with the snowball fighting, we built, in my opinion, probably the coolest snowman ever! *ahem*, I mean snowwoman. Her name is Wanda, and she has pine needles for hair, petrified dogwood blossoms (found in the snow) as decoration in her hair, sticks for arms, and more dead flowers for eyes and mouth. She looks awesome! The middle section of her was so heavy and big all three of us couldn't lift it!
One day, Hannah convinced me to go hiking with her in the bluffs. At first I didn't want to, but the sun was out and it energized me so much! But then, I guess she was really tired and ditched me halfway on the walk. She was being really annoying anyways. good riddance. I walked. And walked. And walked and walked and walked and walked! I walked so much, I had to lay down and rest about 3 or 4 times. When I got back to my room, I realized the icy and snow that was up mid-calf had rubbed the color clear off of my boots! Oops.
On Saturday, I went snow-shoeing for the first time ever! It was so much fun! and I got to hang out with a lot of cool people, which was great for a change. Hannah had planned to come, but the last moment she texted me saying she wasn't going to come. I think she is mad at me. But oh well. I had so much fun.
Today, I had a snowball fight with Regina and Jayne! It wasn't that fun, because I was the only in shape male there. But it was nice that they tried! I built a pretty awesome fort too. On top of that, after we got bored with the snowball fighting, we built, in my opinion, probably the coolest snowman ever! *ahem*, I mean snowwoman. Her name is Wanda, and she has pine needles for hair, petrified dogwood blossoms (found in the snow) as decoration in her hair, sticks for arms, and more dead flowers for eyes and mouth. She looks awesome! The middle section of her was so heavy and big all three of us couldn't lift it!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
_log
Today, I did not have class! So, I tried my hardest to complete all of my study abroad stuff. I am sick of it already! I had a meeting with Dr. Hull, and he looked over my paper. He said it was very well written, and he could tell I really really want to go. No shit sherlock! He then said in a nutshell that since I am so smart that he should challenge me to delve more into how I will make my experience in AUS the best I can, and to write that in my paper. MORE WORK FOR ME! So, all I have to turn in is that paper and the signatures, most of which I have!
I then attempted to get a youtube video posted. I did not succeed, however I spent many hours analyzing my favorite vloggers, and I think I have a good idea about what it takes to succeed on Youtube. I also found a program that makes videos for me already installed on my Mac! This is amazing because it means I will be able to study and understand it, therefore making my takeover of the world fairly easy! Hah! Just checking to see if you were still awake. Anyways, my first video should not be long coming. Love!
I then attempted to get a youtube video posted. I did not succeed, however I spent many hours analyzing my favorite vloggers, and I think I have a good idea about what it takes to succeed on Youtube. I also found a program that makes videos for me already installed on my Mac! This is amazing because it means I will be able to study and understand it, therefore making my takeover of the world fairly easy! Hah! Just checking to see if you were still awake. Anyways, my first video should not be long coming. Love!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
MIAC
I have failed to write in the past few days, because of a three day event called MIAC. It is the climax of our swim season every year. I also did amazingly well.
I don't know how to describe it. This year, after swimming for nearly 15 years of my life, everything just seemed to click. I understood what muscles had to be used in order to maximize speed and productivity, and also learned what proper movements would slide me through the water. It just felt good, I can't even explain it.
And during the meet, it all showed. I improved in every event I participated in! I was in the 200 IM, 100 Breaststroke, the 800 Free relay, and the 200 breaststroke. The first day was the 200 IM. I got a 2:05, a nice drop from my previous best time of 2:10.
The next day was the 100 breast and the 800 free relay. In the morning, my 100 breast time was sped up to a 1:04 from a previous 1:07 time. That night, coach asked what I was going to do, and I told him 1:03. I got it! In the 800 Free, I managed to get a 1:55.
On the third day, the day when I noticed how exhausted I actually was, I managed to stay awake for a 2:23 in the 200 breast.
It was an amazing experience. I felt so in tune with my body and got to physically see the results of my hard work. Wohoo!!! Like my sister said, this was the meet of my life! At least until Senior year!
Today, though, is not quite as fun. There is nothing to do. I am entertaining myself by turning in my Study Abroad applications and reading more of Dracula. Until then.
I don't know how to describe it. This year, after swimming for nearly 15 years of my life, everything just seemed to click. I understood what muscles had to be used in order to maximize speed and productivity, and also learned what proper movements would slide me through the water. It just felt good, I can't even explain it.
And during the meet, it all showed. I improved in every event I participated in! I was in the 200 IM, 100 Breaststroke, the 800 Free relay, and the 200 breaststroke. The first day was the 200 IM. I got a 2:05, a nice drop from my previous best time of 2:10.
The next day was the 100 breast and the 800 free relay. In the morning, my 100 breast time was sped up to a 1:04 from a previous 1:07 time. That night, coach asked what I was going to do, and I told him 1:03. I got it! In the 800 Free, I managed to get a 1:55.
On the third day, the day when I noticed how exhausted I actually was, I managed to stay awake for a 2:23 in the 200 breast.
It was an amazing experience. I felt so in tune with my body and got to physically see the results of my hard work. Wohoo!!! Like my sister said, this was the meet of my life! At least until Senior year!
Today, though, is not quite as fun. There is nothing to do. I am entertaining myself by turning in my Study Abroad applications and reading more of Dracula. Until then.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Shorn
It is very late. So, this post will be short. Like my hair.
I shaved my head. There was a lot of debating in my mind about it, but since everyone else was getting their heads shaved today, there was not much time to think. Of course I thought a lot about it, and the fact that it totally scared the shit out of it made me do it. You know that saying: Do one thing that scares you every day.
I think it looks good :)
We also watched the movie O Brother, Where Art Thou. This is my second time in a week. I find it Hilarious that George Clooney thinks he is such a smart ass when really he's just as dumb as they are! We then had dinner at the Fox Hole (hahaha, John Fox's house,) and made T shirts for MIAC. They are still a work in progress.
I also forgot to mention that my friend Sam got out of jail yesterday! I talked to him yesterday and today also. He seems the same (in a good way), yet is very overwhelmed by the happenings of everyday life.
I shaved my head. There was a lot of debating in my mind about it, but since everyone else was getting their heads shaved today, there was not much time to think. Of course I thought a lot about it, and the fact that it totally scared the shit out of it made me do it. You know that saying: Do one thing that scares you every day.
I think it looks good :)
We also watched the movie O Brother, Where Art Thou. This is my second time in a week. I find it Hilarious that George Clooney thinks he is such a smart ass when really he's just as dumb as they are! We then had dinner at the Fox Hole (hahaha, John Fox's house,) and made T shirts for MIAC. They are still a work in progress.
I also forgot to mention that my friend Sam got out of jail yesterday! I talked to him yesterday and today also. He seems the same (in a good way), yet is very overwhelmed by the happenings of everyday life.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Dracula
I have been reading Dracula on my Nook. It is not like most stories today, but has multiple people writing journals, which then tells you the story by putting them all together. I would like to try this, so as before Going Knowhere is back in business. I will use it to relate the day's events (but not always every day, since like in Dracula there isn't a significant event every day or week.) This will be most hopefully for my benefit, but if you still want to read on and peek into my private life, so be it, I have nothing to hide.
We are on February break right now, a break no other school has. Since the swim team I am on has our end of the year meet soon (MIAC, Feb. 18th-20th) we all have to stay on campus. Yet it feels as if no one is around. Yesterday this made me giddy and excited to be by myself (my friend Hannah was here to entertain me the previous two days,) but today a different mood sombered me up. I proceeded to work on my Study Abroad Essay, and got moderately far. Tomorrow I will finish it.
After this however, there wasn't much of anything to do. I started eating all of the food I had bought (which much to my dismay I've realized I have bought all carbs!) until I basically got sick. I read more of Dracula, but got incredibly bored and had the desire to venture outside and play in the snow.
I've wanted all this year to play in the snow, but for some reason nobody will join me. I am ultimately lonely right now. I feel (yet again) totally misunderstood. Nobody has the same drives as I do. Nobody loves to use their mind while also being quite active physically. I am an outsider here. I've kept trying to deny this fact, but that is the plain of it. I have no friends that I made the previous year, and the only friend I have now (Hannah) is I have realized quite too different from me in that our interests are pulling us apart.
So I decided, hell with it all, I am going out into the snow to play on my own! And so I did. I found it quite entertaining for a little bit, and made a snow angel. There was a snowman that had been set up for weeks, and as such some tool decided to kick the head off. I grabbed the head and decided to try and see if I could make it bigger by rolling it around in the snow. I succeeded, but not without a lot of effort.
Such a rewardless and menial task gave my brain the opportunity to think (oh, the joys!) and unfortunately it was not good thinking. It was about the ever-indulgent question of purpose. What is my purpose? What am I doing? What is the point? Am I actually going in any direction purposeful? But then what is a purposeful direction?
I don't expect anyone else to give an answer. I certainly don't know it. I was however trying to figure out if we actually need other people for this purpose. Previously, I would have said no. Now, I will say yes. Loneliness is terrible. Usually such a mood would have brought me to tears, but even worse was the fact that I was so lonely tonight I could not cry. I am alone in the world. It is terrible, but it is the truth. Such a veil covers my person most wholesomely either by interests or by the distance of those I love.
And while time will bring the distance between me and my family together again, if only for a short while, family cannot be the only connections one has in this life. Sadly right now it is all I have. So I have, I think, found my new purpose. Try to find others like me. For I have concluded, most specutatively, that I am different. It is not a desire, nor something to make myself feel better, but a fact. I am different, and unfortunately uniqueness also means rarity. I am a rare personality. I have a rare spirituality. I have a rare sexuality. I have a rare talent (I think....this may not be true). I have a rare thirst for adventure.
While others sit on their couches and stare at TV's, I stare out the window and dream of worlds unseen. While others look at girls and their bodies, I look at my brothers and try to see what's underneath their skin, while others are easily sated by physical manifestations, I thirst for something more abstract, more purposeful.
So my purpose, at least momentarily, is to find others like me. I will try to find others who cherish the outdoors, their brethren, and higher knowledge. Anyone else just seems to hold me back from a higher ground of realization.
If this sounds like I am depressed, do not worry, I am not, yet. It is more like an understanding of what I need to do. And while my present state of existence sucks ass, a high majority of peoples' do, so don't worry. I contemplated suicide many years ago, and to do so now seems too pointless and ultimately unfulfilling. Seeking out a newer purpose seems the way to go.
LATER
Watched a buttload of short movies on youtube. Felt a lot better, for now.
We are on February break right now, a break no other school has. Since the swim team I am on has our end of the year meet soon (MIAC, Feb. 18th-20th) we all have to stay on campus. Yet it feels as if no one is around. Yesterday this made me giddy and excited to be by myself (my friend Hannah was here to entertain me the previous two days,) but today a different mood sombered me up. I proceeded to work on my Study Abroad Essay, and got moderately far. Tomorrow I will finish it.
After this however, there wasn't much of anything to do. I started eating all of the food I had bought (which much to my dismay I've realized I have bought all carbs!) until I basically got sick. I read more of Dracula, but got incredibly bored and had the desire to venture outside and play in the snow.
I've wanted all this year to play in the snow, but for some reason nobody will join me. I am ultimately lonely right now. I feel (yet again) totally misunderstood. Nobody has the same drives as I do. Nobody loves to use their mind while also being quite active physically. I am an outsider here. I've kept trying to deny this fact, but that is the plain of it. I have no friends that I made the previous year, and the only friend I have now (Hannah) is I have realized quite too different from me in that our interests are pulling us apart.
So I decided, hell with it all, I am going out into the snow to play on my own! And so I did. I found it quite entertaining for a little bit, and made a snow angel. There was a snowman that had been set up for weeks, and as such some tool decided to kick the head off. I grabbed the head and decided to try and see if I could make it bigger by rolling it around in the snow. I succeeded, but not without a lot of effort.
Such a rewardless and menial task gave my brain the opportunity to think (oh, the joys!) and unfortunately it was not good thinking. It was about the ever-indulgent question of purpose. What is my purpose? What am I doing? What is the point? Am I actually going in any direction purposeful? But then what is a purposeful direction?
I don't expect anyone else to give an answer. I certainly don't know it. I was however trying to figure out if we actually need other people for this purpose. Previously, I would have said no. Now, I will say yes. Loneliness is terrible. Usually such a mood would have brought me to tears, but even worse was the fact that I was so lonely tonight I could not cry. I am alone in the world. It is terrible, but it is the truth. Such a veil covers my person most wholesomely either by interests or by the distance of those I love.
And while time will bring the distance between me and my family together again, if only for a short while, family cannot be the only connections one has in this life. Sadly right now it is all I have. So I have, I think, found my new purpose. Try to find others like me. For I have concluded, most specutatively, that I am different. It is not a desire, nor something to make myself feel better, but a fact. I am different, and unfortunately uniqueness also means rarity. I am a rare personality. I have a rare spirituality. I have a rare sexuality. I have a rare talent (I think....this may not be true). I have a rare thirst for adventure.
While others sit on their couches and stare at TV's, I stare out the window and dream of worlds unseen. While others look at girls and their bodies, I look at my brothers and try to see what's underneath their skin, while others are easily sated by physical manifestations, I thirst for something more abstract, more purposeful.
So my purpose, at least momentarily, is to find others like me. I will try to find others who cherish the outdoors, their brethren, and higher knowledge. Anyone else just seems to hold me back from a higher ground of realization.
If this sounds like I am depressed, do not worry, I am not, yet. It is more like an understanding of what I need to do. And while my present state of existence sucks ass, a high majority of peoples' do, so don't worry. I contemplated suicide many years ago, and to do so now seems too pointless and ultimately unfulfilling. Seeking out a newer purpose seems the way to go.
LATER
Watched a buttload of short movies on youtube. Felt a lot better, for now.
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